It’s too hard. I don’t know enough. I don’t like being uncomfortable. I’m too old. I’m not experienced enough. There are already so many people doing it.
And the biggest one, I’m not good enough.
Starting this blog at the beginning of the year with my first post, I heard my loudest inner critic say in a snide tone, “I’m not a good enough writer. I’m not a good enough Christian.”
It’s a risk to go for a dream. I’ll admit to you, I wasn’t sure what would happen. What if, instead of a place for us with light to grow in, this blog was a ghost town on the web, just me and some tumbleweeds with the occasional lizard running through?
Yet I felt I had to try. Under the voice of my inner critic, I heard a calling like a melodious whisper that I wanted to answer.
What happened exceeded my hopes! You, my beloved readers, made this experiment worthwhile. You passed on the word about the blog.
You stopped me for a quick visit about how you could relate to what I said.
You left comments that touched my heart and emails that I have saved in my journal.
You said, “I can relate.”
You strengthen me. You bless me.
I felt less alone. I realized that we’re working toward common goals of growing our faith, our compassion and our ability to enjoy life.
This Thanksgiving, I’ll be giving thanks for you, my valued readers.
The critic comes every week. I hear that same disparaging voice with its prediction of failure and the assessment of “not good enough.”
But friendship and support are stronger, steadier, louder. The sense of togetherness affirms that I should keep going.
As hard as it is, as little as I know, as badly as I write, as much as I stumble and drop communion on my way toward God, I will keep going.
I appreciate you for coming with me!
Comment on today’s blog and you’ll be entered in the random drawing!
You can leave a comment here until noon, Friday, Nov. 22, 2013, when I will randomly pick the winner of the first book, Daily Guideposts 2014, a Spirit-lifting Devotional. A friend at church recommended this book, and I plan to use it in 2014.
Good luck and BIG THANK YOU!